Here we go again

20.1 10 Rounds 8 x Ground to Overhead, 10 Over the Bar Burpees. 15 Min cap.

This was my first time doing the open at Plus 64 during “Friday Night Lights”. It was an awesome vibe, full of awesome people, heaps of awesome support and awesome energy.

How’d you go?

Stoked – just 7 short!

But is that an honest answer? I actually don’t know…I did a thing. Other people did better. Could I?

I am struggling to keep my perspective in check – I know no-one gives a shit about my score, and neither should I – but I do. I don’t like not being good at stuff…and I don’t like not liking being good at stuff. I want to be that person that can genuinely leave their ego at home, that doesn’t compare themselves to others, that can define good enough in their own terms.

I’m not entirely sure how to get there. I’ve listened to podcasts, I’ve read books, I know the theory: have a growth mindset, focus on the lessons you can learn, judge the effort not the outcome, everyone is on a different journey, you against you…

I have been here before though – hell, I wrote a blog about it! And I thought I ‘got it’ – but was that just lip service, was it actually because the results were good at the same time? Was I kidding myself?

At this point I figure I have two options:

Fake it – keep saying I am stoked, I am content with my score, and go into the rest of the open paying lip service to the concept of me Vs me – and maybe the results will mean I can feel good and pretend that it’s because I cracked the mind games. Maybe, if I pretend hard enough, it will become true.

Or Face it – dig deep, be vulnerable, and force myself to do the hard yards and confront what I’m feeling and actually get mentally stronger.

I choose to Face It

Here goes…